So I just had a big exam and in truth, I did not prepare for it very well. I really didn't. I only read about half of the papers I should have and half-assed my reading of many of the ones I did actually "read". I barely prepped for the exam. It's a 2 parter - this exam - and I just did the written part. The oral part is coming up in 2 weeks. Advisor has given me some feedback on the written part and the general consensus is that I passed...but it was a low pass.
And I feel morose.
Mr. Random is kind of annoyed by this - his points out that considering my amount of prep work, a pass at all is a good thing. He has a point. So why am I so morose? Is it because I didn't pass with my usual Gold Star Standard? Maybe. But I'm also a bit concerned at why I was so unmotivated to prep. And why I continue to be fairly unmotivated. Am I just overwhelmed? Or is this postpartum depression? Or something else entirely?
I'm not sure...but I've been in this funk for about a week at least....maybe longer but I've really noticed it the past several days. If it doesn't end soon I'm going to have to go talk to someone...